Stupid Stupid!!

Many a time, we made mistakes not coz we are ignorant. We made mistakes when we actually know that they're mistakes!
"I know I shouldn't smoke.. it's bad for health.. but I'm addicted."
"I know I shouldn't be racist.. but I dun care. I just dun like this race.."
"I know he's a jerk.. but I still choose to be with him.. coz I like him."

Sounds familiar?
We seem to be in such situations every now & then. And pretty often, when we see our frens in such situation, we'll tell them, "I told you so".
That's a superbly "qian bian" statement (for the benefit of those who do not understand Chinese, this means a statement that will cause u some physical pain or that you'll have to endure a glare from your fren minimally).
It's really really easy for all of us to say things.. we all know wat we have to do.. the issue is, can we actually do it?

I made a really stupid mistake yesterday.. I actually allowed myself to be placed in a position where my beliefs & values are once again compromised. However, I feel that I could not help it at that point of time. It was a time when my judgement was clouded.. Or rather, I knew the consequences of such an action. However, I chose to allow it to happen. I felt totally "bashed up" after that. I knew that it's a mistake long long ago.. but once & again, I allowed such a thing to happen. I really ought to be shot. But no more.. I have to solve this problem by uprooting the "cause" totally. Once a mistake, twice carelessness, thrice stupidity. It's time I take better care of myself & not allowed myself to be in a compromising position. I pray that I have the strength & sense to carry this whole thing through..